***Note I do not have pictures up yet because this computer is not wroking with me haha &i can't seem to find the peom/lyrics section, so this is wher my poems will be here for now...visual art/photography will hopefully be up soon :]]

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my life.
senseless.
a waste of time.
i look back on my past
&look @ all the mistake i've made,
all the trouble i've caused,
all the hate.
i try and look back in my past again
&look for all the good times but there is mothing there,
i search and search
through my mind
but there is nothing that
makes sense or that is blissful.
i wonder to myself if i leave this
modern age of sex drugs and rock n roll
on this so called earth is there another life?
if i let everyting go would there be some other place where i would start over?
where new beginnings take place?
where i could be my own leader and no complicatons?
there are so many questions but none will be answered.
should i take this risk,
and see what happens?
or should i stay on this earth &let my life waste. my soul away?
the choice i want to choose,
remains unanswered.
honestly i am terrified
to answer that question
and what my future lies,
ahead of me.